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Distance by Streetlights
03:10
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Contentment just breeds complacency
Your presence can’t feed this vacancy
So I’ll hide my face so they can’t see
I’m reassembling myself
Childhood sensitivities
And grown-up sensibilities
They’ve all got a hold on me
I’m sentimental as hell
We used to measure distance by streetlights
Sidewalk cracks and slow goodbyes
Instead of missed calls and mixed signs
You’re gone and I’ve gone out of my mind
The other side of my bed remains
Unoccupied, and it’s such a waste
As I toss and turn, to reclaim my space
Just wanna breathe again
It’s time to rewrite our history
So solitude can feel like victory
And I’ll smile through the misery
Until I’m free and content
We used to measure distance by streetlights
Sidewalk cracks and slow goodbyes
Instead of missed calls and mixed signs
You’re gone and I’ve gone out of my mind
I can’t see the streetlights
I can’t see the streetlights no more
I can’t see the sidewalk cracks
or your tracks outside my front door
I can’t see the streetlights
I can’t see the streetlights no more
What happened to streetlights?
What happened to streetlights?
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2. |
Make Space
04:30
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Will you make space for me
even when it's inconvenient
Cuz filling this vacancy
is all I need, my only weakness
It's easy to feign indifference
I'm trying in vain to maintain my common sense
But you've broken down my walls
Invaded my defenses
I'm trying to keep my guard up
but my heart’s in your hands
I know that it's a long shot
but I haven't lost faith
that I could be all you need
if you'd only make space
Will you make space for me
even if I'm not always pleasant
Cuz my cynical mentality
could be softened by your presence
I'm craving some kind of consistency
to strengthen my mind and my vulnerability
But you've broken down my walls
Invaded my defenses
I'm trying to keep my guard up
but my heart’s in your hands
I know that it's a long shot
but I haven't lost faith
that I could be all you need
if you'd only make space
Space for mistakes
Space for my bad days
Space to be stubborn
Space for my pride
(Space) to be apprehensive
(Space) for opposing perspectives
Space for compromise
But you've broken down my walls
Invaded my defenses
I'm trying to keep my guard up
but my heart’s in your hands
I know that it's a long shot
but I haven't lost faith
that I could be all you need
if you'd only make space
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3. |
Inertia
03:57
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I need someone who sees and understands
My mixed up priorities and demands
Cuz my only sights are set
On someone I’ve never met
Cuz when it comes to myself, I’m never satisfied
Every inch of my mind’s always occupied
Momentum is all I need
So when I feel incomplete
The thought of you sets me into motion
Like a tumbleweed I keep on rolling
Like the waves crashing on the ocean
You’ve got me going and going and going
Someone whose spirit floats me like a cloud
Don’t need an anchor weighing me to the ground
No, alright just ain’t good enough
You better be keeping up
Cuz always being by myself, it drains my energy
I’m losing sight of the person I intend to be
Though there ain’t no guarantee
I know you’re out there for me
The thought of you sets me into motion
Like a tumbleweed I keep on rolling
Like the waves crashing on the ocean
You’ve got me going and going and going
The thought of you sets me into motion
Like a tumbleweed I keep on rolling
Like the waves crashing on the ocean
You’ve got me going and going
Yeah you, yeah you set me into motion
Yeah you set me into motion
Yeah you set me into motion, whoa
Yeah you, yeah you set me into motion
Yeah you set me into motion
Yeah you set me into motion, whoa
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4. |
Just Ain't Groovin'
03:26
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The beginning was picture perfect
Like a song from a movie scene
But the days went by, so stale and dry
Our love felt so routine
Fast forward to the present
Our rhythm’s all outta sync
And our melody has no energy
Do you sense a theme?
I just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving to your love
No more, no more
I just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving to your love
No more, no more, no more
We’ve outgrown our preconceptions
So why fight to feed a flame
Take a final bow, ‘cuz ain’t no doubt
We crave a new refrain
It’s physically exhausting
Pretending we feel the same
So I recommend we cue the end
What else can I say?
I just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving to your love
No more, no more
I just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving to your love
No more, no more, no more
Is love about priorities and always making time
Or letting things flow naturally within our busy lives
I may not know what love is, but when reality hit
I took one look at what we have and baby this ain’t it
I just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving to your love
No more, no more
I just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving
Just ain’t grooving to your love
No more, no more
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5. |
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Drown my days in distractions and shampoo
Wash away every trace of you
Sleep more and eat less
Invest in matters you'd find meaningless
Cross my fingers that you'll notice
But "maybe-someday"s can't do shit for us
Cuz the distance I defended
Only made my heart grow farther
Cuz if your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust
Cuz if your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust, turn to dust
Now I'm back here in between
Waiting for Mr. Next to intervene
Time to put our memories to sleep
But I don't know which ones I should believe
After time our love felt forced
The words you used weren't even yours
Just abusing an illusion
For a fleeting sense of shelter
Cuz if your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust
If your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust
Cuz if your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust
Cuz if your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust, turn to dust
Turn to dust, turn to dust
You turn to dust, turn to dust
*Reese's gorgeous scat solo*
It makes me wanna take up arms cuz I ain't got arms to hold me
Makes me wanna start a fight cuz there's no one fighting for me
Yet I'm afraid my intuition says save my ammunition
Cuz I know I'm only craving the glory
But I need to feel something other than unwanted
Cuz if your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust
Cuz if your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust
If your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust
If your love is nothing more than lust
When you lose touch, you turn to dust, turn to dust
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6. |
Pot of Gold
04:20
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I built my love a home
Carved out our names in stone
I papered up the walls in gold
Each room was clean and warm
But you kept the curtains drawn
Made sure the fireplace was on
And when the flood came rushing in
Our home was still standing
We floated on our luck but then
We saw the flames were dancing
But I should have known
You're no pot of gold
Who knew a little fire
Could leave our love so cold
So I picked all the locks
Tore open every box
Commitment comes at such a cost
And every dream we raised
Impossibilities we chased
They've been abandoned and estranged
And when the flood came rushing in
Our home was still standing
We floated on our luck but then
We saw the flames were dancing
But I should have known
You're no pot of gold
Who knew a little fire
Could leave our love so cold
And just like that we went from paradise to prison
Lustful lies lay on your lips and
I believed ya when I kissed 'em
Yet all our affection was collecting dust
An authentic connection swept under the rug
And when the flood came rushing in
Our home was still standing
We floated on our luck but then
We saw the flames were dancing
But I should have known
You're no pot of gold
Who knew a little fire
Could leave our love so cold
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7. |
Ego
03:40
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How many bodies
must you abuse on your way up
How much destruction
can you excuse before you've had enough
What do you believe in
that isn't just for show
How many bodies
do you need, to feed your ego
How many shoulders
must you stand on until you're at the top
How much deception
can you transform into a full time job
Have you got a conscience
or was he fired long ago
How many shoulders
do you need, to feed your ego
How many orders
must you defy without a care
How many handshakes
can justify your past affairs
What do you believe in
that isn't just for show
How many bodies
do you need, to feed your ego
Do you need to feed your ego
Do you need
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8. |
Something to Prove
03:22
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Gotta watch my mouth
I’m a criminal, if I’m genuine
‘Cause if I call ‘em out
They see sincerely threatening
As my thoughts spill out
They’re critical, I ain’t eloquent
So I learned to shut my mouth
‘Cuz they fear the feminine
Wasted so much energy, trying to kill my agency
Ignorance is deafening, why must you talk over me?
You don’t get to cherry-pick which parts of me you get
If I give my body, gotta take what’s in my head
When it comes to what you hear, you can’t pick-and-choose
Might be news to you but I’ve got something to prove, something to prove
Justify my space
Their words ricochet like a pendulum
A self-fulfilling cage
Escape feeds my adrenaline
I’m in this race
They see my tracks ahead of ‘em
What I’m serving on their plate
A taste of their own medicine
Wasted so much energy trying to kill my agency
Ignorance is deafening, why must you talk over me?
You don’t get to cherry-pick which parts of me you get
If I give my body, gotta take what’s in my head
When it comes to what you hear, you can’t pick-and-choose
Might be news to you but I’ve got something to prove, something to prove
I’ve got to jump higher, gravity unravelling
My finish line is farther and you abuse my opportunities
When I speak you silence me, all I’ve got to give is honesty
You should try it sometime, open up your mind
You don’t get to cherry-pick which parts of me you get
If I give my body, gotta take what’s in my head
When it comes to what you hear, you can’t pick-and-choose
Might be news to you but I’ve got something to prove, something to prove
You don’t get to cherry-pick which parts of me you get
If I give my body, gotta take what’s in my head
When it comes to what you hear, you can’t pick-and-choose
Might be news to you but I’ve got something to prove, something to prove
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9. |
Hands Off
03:49
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Your halo is losing its glow
Guess you can’t sustain your angel wings on words alone
And it seems to me an unholy belief
Guess I wouldn’t know
Your eyes of judgment justifying bloodshed
Ain’t no time for discussion, disregarding the repercussions
Feeding on speculation with a side of disinformation
Spitting out your new salvation but I don’t see the correlation
Seems you’re blinded by misguided light
In the eyes of those you trust
If my side’s a crime, tell me why I find
Your “right” is so unjust
You may think you can police me
No one said justice came easy
If you want to resolve this division
Take your hands off my mouth and listen
Though you and I’ve got this great divide
We ain’t s’posed to be enemies, just open your mind
Don’t care who’s at fault, reach across this wall
To the other side
We’re in disagreement, we fight for different reasons
You don’t need my allegiance when you see me as an inconvenience
Choking on intimidation, buying into manipulation
Bow down now, in admiration, look what’s happening to our nation
Seems you’re blinded by misguided light
In the eyes of those you trust
If my side’s a crime, tell me why I find
Your “right” is so unjust
You may think you can police me
No one said justice came easy
If you want to resolve this division
Take your hands off my mouth and listen
We’ve got different definitions of “equal”
Of the people, by some people, for your people
Our flag is bruised in black and blue and shame
Time to put the United back in USA
Different definitions of “equal”
Of the people, by some people, for your people
Our flag is bruised in black and blue and shame
Time to put the United back in USA
Seems you’re blinded by misguided light
In the eyes of those you trust
If my side’s a crime, tell me why I find
Your “right” is so unjust
You may think you can police me
No one said justice came easy
If you want to resolve this division
Take your hands off my mouth and listen
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10. |
Postscript
02:51
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Tell me
How do I look from the other side?
Now that the honeymoon phase has died
My presence no longer romanticized
Sometimes do you contemplate
How we let laugh lines turn to tear stains
Do you ever miss me?
Cuz I have my days
Tell me
Am I still the genius you claimed I was
In retrospect, are you ashamed of us
Do all of our memories fill you with disgust
Some days I get to reminiscing
We walked through our heaven and left it a prison
Do you ever miss me?
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t
Our perceptions can be tinted
By what we think is love
And only being committed
Will never be enough
We tried to go the distance
But could only make it so far
Cuz swimming in wishful thinking
Can’t wash away who you are
“What if this or that” keeps my mind awake
All our flashbacks leave an aftertaste
Did you really love me
Or did our time go to waste?
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Jenni Rudolph Los Angeles, California
Jenni Rudolph is a songwriter, musician, and vocal producer from Southern California. With a hunger for authentically human stories and a taste for funky basslines, Jenni writes to make you feel whole, to make you feel connected, and to make you dance.
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